Aaron. You of all people know how emotional and sensitive I can be. I know that it drives you crazy, being so much like my dad in that if you can't fix it, I should go cry to someone else about it. I'm learning the hard way how I need to hide how much I miss you, how I need to work on dealing with those feelings in a way that didn't annoy you so much.
I just feel like I never understood that maybe it's hard for you too. That even though you've been deployed for a year and you've been away from home so long now, that it is still hard for you, especially in the home stretch. Babe, I'm working on it. If only for two and a half more months, I am working on it.
Mornings like this help. When I get a phone call asking "What are you doing, Jennifer?" and "Will you Skype with me?" just make my heart soar. Just knowing that my non-sentimenal, hard-ass, Army soldier wants to start his day talking to me makes everything better.
And hearing that things are falling into place for your transition to the civilian lifestyle (college, getting a terminal leave start date soon, your GI Bill transitions) just makes me more and more excited for August... and (because I'm a total sap and hate to disappoint) the rest of our lives.
I'm so in love with you, which is the only reason I miss you so. We can do this. So close now.
Wow, 75 days really does sound like nothing. You are a strong woman and he knows how lucky he is. Its true we have to hide the hard parts (missing him,sadness, crying etc.) from them and they do as well but we all know it is there. How do you do it? How do you go everyday missing him like crazy? Dreaming that he is right next to you and waking up and hes not? Your right just a simply phone call, just hearing his voice can make your week and boost you up again.. amazing huh? I encourage you to keep up with your blog I enjoy following it as you encourage me to keep following my soldier.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard, but I spend my time working, hanging out with friends, writing, and trying to get into other hobbies (but failing, I have a terrible attention span ;)). This Monday I'm going to start Insanity. Gonna start making healthier decisions too! That will help pass the time!
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